: not perfect :

Maybe it's just me not going anywhere during this holiday and it's kinda make me reflect back on my life here actually. Some people might say that they achieved their goals and aims and many more but for me, I'm really trying to find the inner self and realization that i need in my life. I'm trying to stay in the path of righteousness and enlightenment which is my religion.

I do admit I'm not a perfect Muslim, but I'm willing to be the best at it. It's just these "voices" kept playing in my mind saying that you remember the past things that you "had done". Does GOD gives u a chance? Will he sees the change that you are trying to make. I dealt with this my whole life.

I still remember that someone told me in the past, "As long the Door of Redemption is not close, and you have the 'nawaitu' and actions that shows ur changing, InsayaAllah, HE will grant your redemption."

For all it's worth, this has been my salvation. It's like what kept me going from going way astray from the right path. Ya Allah, please save me. Please save me and show me the right path to eternal happiness.