Him...

We talked less than 5 minutes. He asked me one thing and I will answer one thing.
Common dialogue:

Him : "Dah masak?" Me : "Dah."
Him : "Angkat baju. Hujan." Me : "OK.Hurm."

It's always the same old dialogue and gestures. But I guess it's like that. Well you might think that it's kind of sad or distance but surprisingly when he called me on the phone he will get 'mesra' and I like that alot. He asked me how am I doing, have I eaten, still have money and stuff.

When were so far away let say I'm away in my uni, or am not at home, he'll make sure he knows my well being. But strangely when I'm at home he seems not to care. maybe it's just him. Maybe it's just his way of showing his love to me. We're not the most touchy feely kind of persons but I certainly feel his love towards me even he does not show it.

In a way I know that he is proud of me and what I have achieve despite my many many disappointments. The more I observe the more we are alike. When I know that the person that I care is in front of me, and doing fine and well, I won't express my feeling towards them like some people does. But I observe that particular person. if they are fine then I'm ok with it. Maybe it's genetic.

I still remember when I was send to penang to further my study, he cried and were kind of sobbing in front of me. That was the first time I saw him shedding tears in front of me. I was touched and told him if he starts crying then I will start crying too. He was kind of hard to let me continue my study abroad as I have never left Johor except on holidays but this is different because I'm staying in Penang for nearly 5 years. But eventually he warmed up to the idea that he have to let me go. It was the most endearing moments we share.

According to his close family members, even though he puts on a tough exterior, he has a very soft heart. He cares for his family a lot and sometimes still regard himself as the youngest brother in the family.

As you mature you will tend to view the world through different perspectives. I guess as I mature I see him differently and respect him even more.

Happy Fathers' Day Dad =)